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i am so bored. And dead.

  • Jun. 3rd, 2009 at 5:01 PM
sheep
NO MOOD TO STUDYYYYYYYYYY.

Arghh and without studying, i don't know anything, and can't do anything! No or should I say, even with studying, I still dont know anything. Can't sit still and study at all. Whats wrong with me?! Wonder what it'll be like if I go to the exam hall in as bad a state as this =S In sec sch/ jc, even if you don't study much, what was taught during lectures was retained pretty easily, and it was much easier to apply what you've learnt (into exam questions that is). In college, the exact opposite! I can't do a single question. Rahhh.

That aside, the cheesy/silly/corny/but still funny joke that always pops back into my head whenever i see the biochemistry notes:




Watson and Crick went into a pet shop one day and wanted to get a pet. There were 3 dogs which they kinda liked. (Lets just call them 1, 2, 3.) Guess which did they choose in the end?















2. Because its the CENTRAL DOG MA!


im so lame -_-

Britains Got Talent!!

  • May. 30th, 2009 at 10:56 PM
our smileey
The show is soooo goood!!

Haha no I haven't been following it, except for watching all the wow auditions on youtube, but its the finals today, and so many of them are so good that I don't know who I want to win!! The household caught the show on itv.com and all the performances were GREATTTT :) Britains got talent really hahaha. I'm totally impressed :D While people critique and say susanboyle's overated, or that she is a one song-er, I honestly think she does this song justice. It was great, hahah and fit for the queen.

http://talent.itv.com/videos/video/item_200287.htm


(Haha FAILED i dunno how to embed media!! go to the site manually please -.-)

 


Hollie Steel tooo! Her semi-finals was so devastating. You should really watch it. makes you feel all that fear for the poor little girl :( Glad that the finals were better. Hahahh yah the rest were good too, Aidan was a little disappointing though, but quite sad that he couldn't rehearse enough to make the finals his best. He was so good the whole time! Hahahahh im saying everything is good, coz it is!! Except for the corny non-mainstream stuff, sorry I can't accept those =S Just watch everything on itv.com or youtube! :)

Quite disappointed by the results though :( Diversity's good but haha i prefer others.

Well at least overall, i'm really impressed by the quality of the show :DDD

sad rants

  • May. 14th, 2009 at 9:25 PM
porcupine
Today is one of those days when everything seems so grey. I'd like to attribute it to a certain pm syndrome, because at least there's something to point your fingers at? Okay anyway thats not the point. The point is after my self-justified argument, I've decided that a better way to deal with my sad thoughts is to think more of them. As in, you know there are many sad facts in life and sometimes all you wanna do is to NOT think about them, because once you do you can't help but feel sad? Because it is a fact that they do exist. But it'll be even sadder if you avoid thinking about them so as not to feel sad, because you're just escaping and there's a whole very silly out-of-bounds zone where you even have to restrict yourself from entering. Hahah yes therefore the 'solution' is to keep entering that sad zone until you've worked out that it is not that sad afterall.

Anyway it all started, when I was in Physical tutorial. As a chemistry student, one will tend to have a favourite chemistry, i.e. Organic, Inorganic or Physical (or at least something along that line). Back in JC, i thought i kinda enjoyed chemistry as a whole, and organic chemistry at that. Then come college, I find organic chem more disgusting by the day. At the same time, also thinking that although phy lectures are always confusing, somehow at the end of it, its something I find least problems with. Inorg probably just stays more or less neutral, although i liked MO quite a bit. So.. back at that tutorial, it suddenly dawned on me that although phychem is something i can score in, i don't really think i'm interested in it! All those error analysis, least mean squares, data and computer stuff... No, not too keen. So i entertained the thought that maybe, orgchem is not that repulsive afterall (after we stopped having org.labs). Haha but eew, again totally repulsed when i went for the next lesson - yes guess what org.tut. There's not a single bone in me which inclines toward remembering the names of ten thousand chemists and their ten thousand synthetic pathways. Woohoo. Next, inorg crystals lectures. Sat through the whole lecture amused that i understood maybe only 10% of what was going on. ARGH. Feels like i'm wasting a few (may i add, prime) years of my life studying so hard for something that I don't like, don't understand, and probably won't need for the rest of my life. I'm highly envious of people who actually love (or at least enjoy) what they're learning. And somehow at the back of my head i think studying geog would be quite enjoyable, all the realness of it :) Hahah not that i've ever developed that interest, plus i suck at arty subjects. And psych too, useful to a certain degree at least. But ohwells, i probably would've felt the same resent if i really majored at these subjects anyway.

There is no consolation to think about the future, when you graduate and enter the workforce, because statistics show that most people don't like where they are and just wanna get out. What then? Argh, maybe life would surprise me then, if i don't hold too high expectations of it.

Until there is a better solution, i better start to learn how to love chem more >.<

NICE

  • May. 2nd, 2009 at 1:55 PM
sheep
21 - 23 March 2009
Nice, France
Realised I havent posted a single picture / thing about Nice! And I'm too lazy to scan through the photos to upload on facebook, but yes even lazier to blog a proper post. So hahah.. a picture or two to remind me a few years down the road that I even went there.




Atop the cacti sky garden at Eze Village


Monte Carlo, Monaco, the place for the rich and famous!


Fruit and Flower Market. Loveeeeeely place :)


Great weather! Look at the crowd! ^_^


Must prove that we were there haha

 
Free flow mussels and frites!

xoxo,

  • Apr. 16th, 2009 at 6:05 PM
porcupine
Gossip Girl.

Ohmygoshhhhhhh. I know its a little late and i've procrastinated long, but i've finally gotten down to watching Gossip Girl! And it is such an evilllllllll show! Started watching it hmm 3 nights ago? And just completed the series. I actually started on the wrong episode coz I conveniently clicked on the first episode in the folder -.- And like I said, its such an evil show. Cos u can't stop watching it! Initially after a few episodes the bitchiness did feel a bit overwhelming, which later made me worry about the idea of bringing up girls because teen girls growing up is quite a scary process and they can go to all lengths just to fit in (all the scheming stuff, as portrayed by little Jenny). The last few episodes were the worst, because I needed to keep watching cos I wanted things to work out for Serena! I like Serena and Dan :((( Why wont they work outtt. But hahah at least they are a couple in real life (even if only for now or something, we don't know) :D And okay, seeing that this is wasting my entire days away, and that there will be no happy S-D even come season2, I SHALL NOT CONTINUE WATCHING! Not this Easter anyway. Right. End of ranting. Hahah watching so many episodes at a go is really overwhelming and i just needed to rant.

Until then, you know you love me.
xoxo,
Gossip Girl.


Haha FAINT.

What a beautiful mess.

  • Apr. 9th, 2009 at 12:55 PM
foreverfrens
My favourite song from Jason Mraz's concert! i think. I like all his lengthy lyrics! And perhaps i should just embrace the contradictions of life.



You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess, yes it is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And the kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt
Cause here, here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]

We're still here
What a beautiful mess, this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is "Yes"

Through timeless words and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds not of this earth
And tides they turn and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we, tore our dresses and stained our shirts
But its nice today. Oh the way it was so worth it.


Hee Live High is nice too. His chillllllll way of life. I need that.

if we came from nothingness

  • Mar. 25th, 2009 at 5:10 PM
sheep
Just read an article on Jacelyn Tay's testimony. Wouldn't post the entire thing because its kind of long-winded if you're too lazy to read through so many pages. But i came across something pretty interesting. Something which i had never really considered before, but makes so much sense.


My mum is now a Christian. But when I wanted to get baptised in April, which was two months after I received Christ, she objected. Everyday she would call me, cry and threaten me, saying that I was not filial, tha I was deserting her, since I was not going to pray to her after she died. She didn't want me to get baptised, and forced me to speak to a monk, saying, "You must speak to Shifu (Master). If you want to be a Christian, that's fine, but you cannot be baptised."

I replied, "If you want me to speak to Shifu, I shall. But if he cannot answer some of my questions, then I'll go ahead and get baptised."

The monk called me and said, "Chrisianity is actually something lower than Buddhism." He believes in he wheel of reincarnation. The six levels of the wheel of reincarnation are: hell, all the lost souls, the animals, human, deity and the Buddha. You have to work hard for millions of years. For instance, if you are a pig, then in the next life you become a human, and then in the next life you become something else.

I replied, "Okay, as a Buddhist, I have to work very hard. I have to do good so that I can earn the points in my report card, hoping that my next life I may be able to become a Buddha. And then as a Buddha, I have to work some more because I wan to go to the world of 'nothingness' - Nirvana. If that is the case, who decides what I have done so wrong to fall into this wheel of reincarnation. What have I done wrong? Who decides my first life? What did I do to come into this world? Where do I come from?"

He answered, "From the world of nothingness." But if I come from nothing, which is the ideal state, what wrong did I do to fall ino this wheel of reincarnation? He could not answer me. So, everything is meaningless. I came from nothingness and I have to work so hard to go back to the world of nothingness. Because he couldn't answer me, he told my mum to let me become a Christian.





because its so hard to find love here

  • Mar. 1st, 2009 at 12:57 PM
tulips
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.
Galatians 6:9

Shine, Matt Redman )

The Day After Tomorrow

  • Feb. 2nd, 2009 at 10:22 PM
tulips
 

"
The worst snowfalls to affect Britain in 18 years has led to school and road closures, disrupted rail services and hundreds of flight cancellations.
Thousands of people have been unable to travel in London as snow disrupted the city's transport network.
Britain is bracing itself for further disruption as fresh bands of snow sweep across the country.
South-east England has been hit by the heaviest snow in 18 years, causing trains and buses to be cancelled, and airports and schools to be closed.Parts of London may see a foot (30cm) of snow, while the Pennines and parts of the north may see 20 inches (50cm).The Met Office has issued an extreme weather warning for England, Wales and parts of eastern Scotland.
" -BBC


WHOAS! Never knew we'd actually see real snow in London! AND WE DID!

Since yesterday evening, snow started falling and a thin layer collected at our balcony and we were so excited. Read: suaku. Little did we ever imagine there would be such a heavy snow storm through the night that resulted in this morning's 20-30cm thick snow! IN CENTRAL LONDON! It was such a great day! Left house to be greeted by the pristine white snow and it was great that school was cancelled! So we trotted to school, played with snow along the way, and built a snowman on our very own Queen's Lawn. It was a happy day for many people, kids especially, because I doubt they had ever experienced snow like this in London either. So we had a lotta fun, catching snowflakes, throwing snowballs, and making snow angels, until we got really hungry by lunch time. Headed to the nearest food outlet, which was not near at all. Trodded through the whole of Hyde Park to Marble Arch Macs, but eating Macs had never been so satisfying:) Got a little tired by that time though, because a lot of snow had been stepped/driven on by then, and it was all a big, grey, squishy mess, which only seeped through my boots, resulting in cold and wet toes :( So I guess a day of snow is good, all in good fun, but it might have to stop soon, before it becomes a big disaster! Pray that the homeless are adequately provided for though :(

OH and the school library is closed indefinitely. Hahah think they're afraid we might follow the movie and burn the books for heat! ;-)


  

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turkish delight!

  • Jan. 31st, 2009 at 6:19 PM
sheep
Hahaha a looooong overdue post. Wrote a small part after returning from turkey, but never managed to complete it. Decided to do away with lengthy narations though, hopefully it'll make blogging less tedious. here goes:


19 - 26 Dec '08

Back from Türkiye and it was a good trip overall! :)

 

Sekron Tours )



 
Amazing view at Cappadocia, place of cave houses  

 

Cappadocia )

 

Pamukkale )

  
Thats us soaking our legs in the very comforting rush of warm water! BUT the next pic shows chieh struggling to pull down my jeans for me. OHMY so embarrassing. Hahah skinny jeans got stuck! Learnt to wear skinny jeans only on the right occasions :/

 

Ephesus )



 
The Celsus Library of Ephesus. The second shows the public road down Ephesus, which was entirely made out of marble! 
  
The temple of artemis. Haha and a very interesting turkish carpets demonstration! Explained how its made, the different kinds of carpets etc. And its vvv nice! But ex. haha (though apparently it could last some 100-1000years)

 

Artemis Hotel and our friend Ibu haha )


 

Istanbul )


  
 The great view from the roof of Big Apple Hostel. Oh and we changed rooms the next day to such nice and happy rooms! Big and comfy and green apple bedsheets with yellow-gold curtains! :) The second shows the boat cruise.

special special dinner :) )

 
The very yummy shish kebab! And we took a pic with the customer manager Suat Timor (hahah we have him on facebook too).

Hahah yup that concludes our turkey trip on a high note! :) Pleased with the friendliness of the whole place. Ohh the total cost of this trip is about £450 incldg flights (haha in case next time i wanna rmb how much it costs).

 

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ぜんぜんわかりません!

  • Dec. 15th, 2008 at 4:20 PM
flowers

けさにほんごしけんをむずかしいです。わたしわあまりわかりません。
いましゅくだいがたくさんありますから、どこもいきません。せんもんのレポートもおわりません。
まいにちたいへんですね。:-(


i'm bored

  • Dec. 13th, 2008 at 3:17 PM
sheep
Its wet and cold and I'm so bored. yawns WHEN ARE THE HOLIDAYS COMINGGG? Although that spells exams also. blurgh

life of a chemistry undergraduate

  • Dec. 3rd, 2008 at 8:12 PM
tulips

Trying to sound remotely like a fine writer. Haha my foot, im such a scientist! :/ Anyhows realised i haven't blogged in a long long long time! Along the way, i've come to the decision that my interest in blogging has waned and unlike in the past, when i'm bored or have thoughts/words, I really won't choose this as an option. But I think its such a pity too, because I'd have no records of my life here at all, and a few weeks/months/years down the road, I'd be clueless how I spent my time! Sooooooo.. i'm in a bid to remember to blog, even if its only occasional.

So my labs have (finally) started, and its already about to end. Not like its too soon to end, because while it has been a fulfilling time, its also very taxing. Hahah I've been feeling like Hermione for the past 2.5 weeks, rushing to start my lab at 11am, and then trying to beat the clock and complete something -anything at all- before I have to go off for Jap lessons at 12pm. But of course, that 1 hour can barely get me setting up any apparatus, so I'd always leave at 12.01pm (or wdv) and run all the way to mech eng building, huff and puff in the lift up, and smile apologetically for being late (again). Have a quick lunch after jap and pooof, back to a room of blue gloves and white coats. I kinda enjoy labs actually, because there's this freedom and control over what I'm doing. Still, some things are way out of my control. Like what happened on Monday, when I was this close to exploding.

Monday lived up to its blue name and I had a badddd day. Problem sheet due, katakana test, lab in a horrible setting. By somewhat 3+pm, I was halfway into my column chromatography and things finally seem to look better. Until my neighbour in the fumehood (who kinda already annoyed me with his constant negligence with his apparatus) accidentally knocked my product over! Thats me halfway through the experiment and a 'sorry' nulled it all. Didn't know what I could do there so I walked away, really exasperated and pissed (yeah never felt this pissed in lab before). Sought K for some complaining, and then a demonstrator kindly helped me request for a new sample and advised me on what I could do. And then yeah, basically that meant my whole day was wasted. Not only that, I realised that my whole lab manual and my IR spectra were all stained (like 1/2 page!) with the yellow unknown mixture (which could potentially contain any or all of the hazards, carcinogenic, toxic, irritant, flammable, etc). Haha thats how I almost exploded. Not directly by some chemicals of course. Anyway yeah, got over it and I guess I can only swallow that down.

Hahaha okay end of story telling! 4 more reports to go! 


 

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settled down [edited]

  • Oct. 15th, 2008 at 2:47 PM
foreverfrens
After about 2 weeks of effort, money, and waiting, our flat is finally up and running! Of course, the last condition for that to be fulfilled is the activation of our internet. yayes so that means I can finally connect to the world in my room! Though its a bittt slow.

Big part of setting up the house goes to bugging our landlord to fix all the faulty things for us, like doors, windows etc, and also to open the warehouse for us, where we took quite some furniture from. With some drilling, hammering, bluetacking and vacuuming..

MY ROOM! :)






Hee the last pic was taken a few days back when the weather was just GREAT. The sun shone all day, and its glory was best captured by the disco ball we bought from centrale mercato in florence. The glittery effect frm the spinning disco ball :) Actually weather here was really good, up until yesterday when it took a turn for the gloomy.



Thats our living room and kitchen. Isn't the view from our kitchen just greattt? -.- Hahah okay actually because it was pasted with sheets of newspaper unaesthetically (coz we're on the ground floor and are pretty exposed), so we replaced that with a cool blue poster :)

Okie too lazy to go on with pictures. its slowwwwww. ciao!

oh forgot to mention.

My address:

Flat 1, Chamberlain House,
171 Cromwell Road,
London,
SW5 0SE,
United Kingdom.

Give Thanks

  • Aug. 30th, 2008 at 10:41 PM
made in singapore
Psalms 100

Make a joyful noise to the Lord, all the Earth!
Serve the Lord with gladness,
come into his presence with singing.

Know that the Lord, he is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his;
we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.

Enter his gates with thanksgiving,
and his courts with praise.
Give thanks to him, bless his name!

For the Lord is good;
his steadfast love endures forever
and his faithfulness to all generations. 

Hee realised i haven't blogged for like forever! Have no inclination to blog these days actually >.<

This was the passage for cg today and we were made to memorise it. Hahahh okay I must admit half a day later, i've forgotten half of it. =x But I think really, there's so much to give thanks for! How much we've been blessed with, but we always tend towards discontent, towards complaining, towards depriving ourselves from our birthright, joy. Of course in a way, I think I've come a long way from the person I was a few years ago, but certainly also, there's still a long journey to go. I would like to think I'm reflecting enough joy and hope to those around me, but I also know what I can understand now is far from that depth where joy is not circumstantial, that even should everything be taken from me, I would still be joyful. Its a lifelong journey i guess.

And so, I've been home for 2 mths now. Unbelievable isn't it. Sometimes, time seems to really crawllll by! In the first 3 wks I was home, life was heaven on Earth. Meeting up with people, slacking, eating :)
At home..
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Met 75 people here and there, hahah not all had photo evidence (im tooo lazy), and esp glad i got to meet fel often while she was back! Dont know when will be the next time I see her maybe 2 years later =p

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And then with the 4f girls. but they are always very busyyyyyy :(

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And with the cg! Going back to covenant :) although of course there are yet more changes to come. i'm thankful for the fellowship, learning, praying, i can get back here. hee love the cosy photo taken last wed :)

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Hahah and of course yup going out with mark (yes i know a lot of you bagua caring people want to know abt this) hee, which is very much determined by each of our commitments elsewhere. But still :)
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which eventually became..
me talking to my hand in the lab:( , and him showing my cheeky dad that sign! =O
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But yayee! the skyping days are about to end! =))))

And then when my work ended, i had about 2 weeks to rot! And i thought rotting at work was bad. Rotting at home was a little hard to get by at first also =/ Until more events occupied me, notably, Sojourn 2008. Getting to know a new bunch of people, collectively known as COCONUTS!
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I learnt how to make sushi too! from my aunt :) who was a littleeee fierce =x oh and ukbound, hahah which we graced, for a couple of hours >.<

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A month more to go! Yayee and think this last month here will be great =))

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something

  • Aug. 8th, 2008 at 2:45 PM
our smileey
Work is not ending! Today's supposed to be my last day, but i'm not sure if it is now. Tentatively not. Sighhhs.

Was talking about something to a friend, then I realised something about myself. There are some people whom I keep judging, not judging as in despise, condemn etc, but judging as in, I round them up and conclude something about them. I am inclined to think that my conclusion is right, until somebody else comes along and suggests a maybe, or a what-if. And then I pause, waver a little. Sometimes I might change my pov, but in this case I came back to the same conclusion. Of course, I don't know for sure that I am definitely right, but because there is a high possibility, I don't wanna take that chance. The reason why I keep offering, is in case you don't know it yourself, and need some nudging, or that you didn't see it at first but do so now, yet it might be difficult for you to be the first to talk about it. That's why I brought such issues up repeatedly. But, in case i am still wrong, i'm really sorry and apologise for being so presumptous k? Pleasee talk to me about it though, so that I won't keep thinking my way. 

For you, if you know who you are =)

=I

  • Jul. 31st, 2008 at 9:52 PM
sheep
anyone will probably think i'm just being silly, but life is really quite miserable now. 
i'm running out of strength, much sooner than anticipated.
i just need a little bit more. just a little bit more.
Somebody loan me some?

it's been a year

  • Jul. 7th, 2008 at 2:24 AM
tulips

I realised the best way to get yourself in a reflective mood is really to pen it down, which i haven't been doing much of lately. I don't know whether to attribute this to the contentment i'm in now, because as some would like to put it, the prerequisite to reflections and mulling over things long and hard, is to be broken, discontent or emo. While emo is a state which i decided can be avoided as long as you choose not to indulge in it (and that its totally working that is), it has been a year, since i passed my last teen, and since i went and came back from a land some thousand miles away, and a little more thinking might just do me some good.

Its quite shocking, how a year flew by just like that. Whenever asked about how the past year had been, i fumble to summarise the many months, not because I think there are just too many things to be captured in a few lines, but that I can't exactly remember what actually took up my time. Time always seem to pass so quickly in London, and you won't find yourself having idle time or something. So i started browsing my blog entries and realised how eventful the past year had been, however much I can't quote them offhand now. 

There's the many trips which i made. Although by the end of this year, i realised i could have done more travelling, what I've been blessed with is already so much to thank for! Especially the ski trip, which over time i've forgotten how truly enjoyable it was (like i did think maybe i just shouldnt go back next year). How it was described as wake up, eat, ski, eat lunch, ski, eat snacks, shower, buffet dinner, play games till late, sleep! x 7. Pure bliss :) And to have a sponsored education in london such that europe is at my doorstep! Without which, i probaby wouldn't even step foot into europe in the near future. Also, there were the many musicals we've been to. I'm not sure if the awe we experienced decreased with every show we've been to, but clearly, where I am now, i didn't remember this is a privilege too. One of my past entry quoted the sound of music, which is really the most happifying and amazing musical i've caught last year. When the dog barks, when the bee stings, when the music fades, i simply remember my favourite things, and then i don't feel, so bad. 

And then of course there were the many involvements which took up so much of our time. I almost thought my past year went by without anything at all, while looking at some cv sample (oh yes its so scary to be back in paper-driven Singapore, and I realised that in the past year, I haven't even been remotely connected to or reminded of any CV-filling stuff). Still, looking back, I think I was probably a bit more involved in CU stuff in the first term, and major event & hcn stuff in the second term. And woah indeed, re-experiencing those days through my entries seem to make everything come alive again. There were the days when we first tried to get involved in major event, and then started feeling a sense of dread for what seemed like a boring plot/role, and then wondering why we were even involved. Yet those were the days we made it home together late at night (or early in the morning), spurring each other on for the long days ahead, or gossiping bout the latest exciting updates. There were also the days when I felt totally stressed up for HCN, alone and helpless. Yet those were the days when I was so touched by how people helped us out unconditionally. Must say that these events stretched me a lot, and helped to mould my london experience into what it is now. 

Of social life and how to interact with others, I've always been glad that its much easier to bond with a larger group of singaporeans in imperial, than say in singapore, simply because we just have to rely on each other more, and are maybe hence less critical about others. Of course, being close to Singaporeans is a double-edged sword, that is you tend to be not so close to the locals / other foreigners, because well, there is only so much time to be spent. Hm I've met a fair share of not-so-friendly people, but there's definitely more than enough friendly ones to make up for that, so I'm glad for whatever contact I've had with the locals, like my tutorial mates or housemates (kitchenmates actually). I like how we have the upper hand of switching to mandarin when we wanna comment on something, hahah yet how we (so affectionately! alright probably only refers to the first two examples) nicknamed people like the chef, coffee boy, pig >.<, cristina yang etc. Even more thankful for my future housemates, the people i've been closest to for the past year. I'm so glad i got to meet such easy-going people, that i don't have to worry if my room is too messy for them, my clothes too shabby, my voice too loud; people that are willing to accept me for who I am. I always tell people i'm glad how i'm not like some others, who are peer-pressured to conform to a certain way of acting, or dressing etc. Glad i have cui friends! ;) But of course, no matter how easy-going they are, each of us have our own strong views and there are gonna be situations where we just cannot see eye to eye. It quite worried me at first, to discover how we were so adamant about some things, and how we're so different. But we've crossed one hurdle, and I'm more confident now that we'll make it through whatever comes next!

Household-wise, no worries i feel so domesticated now. Hahah not now now, but i will when i go back to london=p

Also, i've heard that when people go overseas, 50% become stronger Christians, while 50% just backslide. I'm not sure which side i belong to, probably because there's no clear distinction. While I must admit I didn't make any great leap forward, I'm glad too that I have a God who never lets me go. How I was so eager and desperate to cling on to something so firm at the start, to all the busyness clouding my view and contributing to spiritual dryness, to feeling at peace with God and the world again. Not because of my efforts to climb back, nor my faltering standards, but because of His steadfast, faithful and persevering love. 

In one of our deep and heated discussion at Chicken Cottage (i dunno why such a place always made us so thoughtful), I finally figured that I was a person of nett disappointment. It was quite a rude shock to me, for although I knew I had a fair share of ups and downs, I thought that somehow, they'll at least cancel each other out, or that I'm still a happy person on the whole. Where was the joy of the spirit in my life? I shunned from that fact, because it scared me to realise that, and because I didn't know how to deal with it, or what I could do to change that. For a while also, I don't know if it made me a less giving person, someone who held back a little more, withdrew a little further, build up a wall a little higher. But of course, our ever-gracious God always fills us up with so much more. Ask and it will be given! I was made not to settle for any 60-80 (sadness-happiness), but always for 100-100. It took a long time, but to forgive is to give release from the wrongs someone had committed. Not anyone in particular, because its mainly to release forgiveness to myself. In the past year, I've wondered time and again if I would ever be that 100-100 person again. Little did I know that even as I doubted, I was being filled up bit by bit. I can't express how thankful I am to be so blessed, to be filled with so much love that its overflowing now. In fact, it was during the first cg that I attended after so many months that God spoke to me. Looking at all the tired and jaded faces around, I suddenly realise that being sent so faraway had changed me and brought me back here as someone who could spread joy to those around me! I like that :) To be used as God's joyful cherub :)

If there is one verse which you could choose out of the Bible, to be YOUR verse, what would it be? I sometimes wondered about that, and I even tried thumbing the Bible for what might fit the bill, searching for some of my favourite passages, for that one favourite verse. Of course, I don't think it really works that way. Like somehow, no one verse manage to encapsulate everything. I mean, yes there are those verses often quoted, but thats not my verse. But hahah, i think when it comes, it just does.

We love because He first loved us.  1 John 4:19

Thank you Mark :) 

 

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romancing paris

  • Jun. 26th, 2008 at 7:40 PM
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helloooo. FINALLY decided to blog bout my other easter trip hahah which is to paris and various parts of the netherlands. Shall blog bout the paris part first :)

Central Paris 14 - 15 Apr'08

Took eurostar from london st. pancras to paris du nord (i think i cant rmb) early in the morning. It was quite a frantic start to the day because we couldnt get to the station at first, what with the buses not appearing! Of course we made it promptly in the end :D Ohyeah to be greeted by youcai's muffins :D Reached central paris and had a kebab lunch. Hahah its kinda weird coz somehow when you're in europe, you tend to eat soo much of kebabs and stuff (well, for poor peeps like us that is) whereas we had so many outlets right outside our doorstep back in london at edgware, but were never game for it. Went for the New Paris Free Tour albeit the bad hail. Yes it HAILED like mad that day, and was soo bad at first its like a heavy rain, solid form. Quite painful but quite funny too hahah. Went around central paris for the iconic sites and heard many stories :) Was quite entertaining at some parts, but i couldnt help feeling groggy on and off, travelling fatigue:P

In the evening, we went for another of their tours, the montmarte tour. With the stories of moulin rouge and all. Weather was much better :) I think i only remember 2 stories now, one of which is about the tale of the guy who walked through walls (fiction), and the other was some headless prophet, which i thought was very cool (but a bit freaky). Oh we went veryyyy thirsty along the way, but couldnt find water! Rather, water is really expensive there, like a normal 500ml bottle of coke costs like 2euros. Then we found this water cooler thing haha.


  

Hee our hostel was quite cool. Umm its up there hahah don't wanna mention it here in case they start spamming my blog again :/ Its rather spacious and clean and the exterior looks cool too. Only (rather big) drawback is that its service is pretty bad, like we kept having to wait ages at the reception for them to check us in, and we had to shift rooms after the first night (when we were only staying 2 nights that is) although we booked in advance? Would be fine, if they hadn't made us wait ages on the 2nd night too. 

Anyhows we went re-visiting most of the places on the second day. Since the weather was much better, we could take much nicer photos. Postcard-y photos. Hahah spent loads of time at the Eiffel Tower, coz the weather was just soooooo perfect. We cynics keep saying it looks so nice that it looks fake -.- OH! While we were queuing to go up the tower, there was this tiny baby in the queue ahead of us, who was sleeping. We heard him SNORE! Hahah it was super funny coz the tiny subtle snore sounded soo cute! And you wouldn't imagine a baby his size could snore. Went to the Lourve Museum too. I mean the outside. Hahah GUYS! lourve is closed on TUESDAYS! Please don't make the same mistake >.< 

 
 
 
Went to notre dame too. The outside of it again ohwells *flops* hahah and walked along the river in the evening. the evening view was so pretty :) Ohyeah Mark flew a (paper) plane while on the Eiffel! And Youcai sailed a (paper) boat along the river! Hahah. Early into their professions ;)

 

Paris Disneyland 16 - 17 Apr'08
Wee! Then we set the RER to disneyland :) To discover that our hostel wasn't that near to disneyland afterall, so we lugged all our backpacks to disneyland itself. Don't really think i can put these in words, coz it was just so much fun! Reliving our childhoods :) hahah everything was so happifying! Especially Its A Small World and i liked the Stitch Live! too :) And if you're thinking of going, please do go to BOTH parks coz both are fun!

  
  

Hahah okay thats about it. i'm tired frm the blogging. Longest entry in a looong time! x)

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heaven on earth

  • Jun. 24th, 2008 at 8:02 PM
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I'M HOME! 

For the 3rd day in fact. Hahahh yupps feels greattttttt :)) 

Packing was insane. Coz like, slept so little the previous night to mug for medbio (i'm glad i mugged for it though coz hahah 3/4 of the whole paper was repeated) and then went back to wilson in the afternoon, ran around shops trying to get cardboard boxes, and finally concussed in my room for a while. And then there was rushing to and fro, what with settling the postal stuff, packing my room, packing the kitchen, and FINALLY we made it to kenway at 8pm :) Had dinner at Mark's family's rented appt before coming back for a mini wilsonuts gathering. last time gathering in wilson 4207! i'm gonna miss my room:)

Flew home on A380!
Been greeted by great local food hahah and my first meal here after 9 mths included TAU HUAY, which i've been wanting to eat for a looong time. Hahah feels like heaven cos i can get pampered! x) Anyhows, shant go into the details of the food. 

Ohh bad thing is jetlagging, which was super sian cos my laptop couldnt access my home internet somehow, so i was stranded at 3am with nothing much to do, or rather nobody to talk to hahah.

Date me! (:

Shall blog bout my easter trip soon. hahah so belated -_-

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